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Love is just like life,
not every turn is easy ; and
not every path leads to happiness.
But if we do not give up on life,
Then why should we give up on love..?

Papa is 53 today :)

There are times where i felt
you were harsh on me
There are times where i felt
you were being unreasonable towards me
There are times where i felt
im never good enough for you

But all the time,
I have always wanted to be like you
All the time
I have always wanted to talk the same way you do
All the time
I wanted to act just like you
All the time
I wanted to think like you
And all the time
I have always wanted to be the best for you

You amaze me
With your ability to work round the clock
Yet you are still able to ensure that you fulfil your duty towards Islam

I am amazed
With your deep knowledge and understanding about almost everything
With your sense of humour and your ability to create jokes out of nowhere
With your ability to be strict and firm yet accomodating
With your ability to scold us yet make us feel loved
With your ability to fulfil all our needs and wants.

I am amazed
With the discipline you have instilled in yourself
Coz u have always make difficult things look easy
You have always told me
That everything will be easy if i know how to discipline myself
Yet till today i just can't.

I know i can never be you
Nor can anybody else
But i am proud to be your son
And having you around to guide me
Is the best gift ever

I apologize for all my wrongdoings
I apologize for those moments when i would blame you for being harsh on me
I know you did what you did
Because u have high expectations on me as your eldest son
And I don't intend to let you down.

Thank you for everything Papa.
You have been the best for us.
You know we love you.
Happy 53rd birthday.
I love you.

:) :) :)

lesson learnt.

screwing up is one thing.facing the consequence is another. can't think of a solution. this time there's no way out. praying somehow the client will decide not to proceed with the appeal. that's d only option i have to save my arse. grounds of judgment, please b good. please don't give me any grounds to appeal, so that i can advise the client to withdraw his appeal. this profession is no fun.

myself, please remember :

1) NEVER trust the court's staffs. they don't know anything. menyesal relied 100% on their words. haritu time orang tanya cakap lain. today cakap lain plak. mana aku nak tau ko xtau, dah ko jawab mcm ko tau. dah la tu mmg keje ko hari2 ko buat, mmg la aku igt menda yg ko bgtau tu betul. lain kali xtau cakap je la xtau. kan senang. then kurang ajar pulak on d phone. bile orang introduce diri at least tanya la what can u help, or tanye je la nape call. ni orang introduce n u diam. nampak sangat mmg xde hati nak jwb call. mangkok. yah i shudnt blame u. my own fault. should have read n do some research.

2) NEVER trust the obviously untrustworthy lawyer. fine this time u win on technicalities. how wud i know?? i am just a 6 months old lawyer. can't u at least notify me earlier, since u knew about this? u know how this time there's nothing i can do to undo my mistake kan? u tau how it feels kan? xleh ke spare me this seksa n AJAR budak baru ni?? give me 2 years, i'll make u eat humble pie, arsehole. cannot blame u too. my fault jugak.

3) LITIGATION is no fun. full of pressure. once u screw up other people suffer. then because u cause them to suffer they will make u suffer. padahal u were there in the first place to help them solve their prob. bodo lah!!

Headnotes : i took over a High Court divorce matter from a far more experienced lawyer. knew nothing about the matter b4. learned the hard way.was not given the option to say no. did the full trial n obtained judgment. judgment was fairly ok but client xnak dgr n insist nak appeal. appealled and failed to do something which is fatal to the appeal. now facing the prospect of the appeal being struck out. reason : MY OWN FREAKING STOOPID MISTAKE. to make it worse, there's no way out. no way to reinstate. no way to redo. now what shud i tell the client?? "please withdraw your appeal and just pay whatever the judgment says, coz I SCREWED UP AND SURELY UR APPEAL WILL BE STRUCK OUT N THERE'S NO OTHER WAY FOR U TO APPEAL ANYMORE??"

- down, out and thinking of quitting. even that will not solve anything. sun, please shine and give me reasons to smile again. the rest, i can only pray to Him.-

We were two, now we are one :)

This post is a reminiscence of our days :)

I first heard about you from a friend of ours, Akmal Razi back during our Asasi days in UiTM. At that point of time I was not bothered to even get to know you, coz my aim was only to study and score, mainly because i screwed up in my SPM and my father made it clear to me that i was there only by luck, and if i screw up again it means my future is gone.

Fine. So there i was, a nerdy-"skema"-guy-who-wear-shirts-and-slacks-and-a-briefcase-and-a-pen-in-pocket to class. duh. like i care. At least now when i got introduced to people, they remembered me as "a guy with the pen in pocket" or a "guy with the briefcase" or "a guy who never wear jeans before". Not that I'm proud of those "trademarks" of mine, but something is better than nothing, isn't it?

During my asasi days i hardly make efforts to get to know people. I knew all the guys coz we stayed in the same block and in the same floor. The girls? I only knew those from my class, and not more than 10 others whom i got to know by chance. But this "Nurul Izzah Omar"'s name cropped up every now and then, coz she's apparently from Kuantan, and she's from the same neighbourhood. But yeah, we never met.

Then our UM days came. Since we were in a new "territory", the "Asasians" has decided to keep our close rapport. We stand under one flag, and if one of us is attacked, we will retaliate together (rekaan semata-mata. too much influence from 24. I really think me and Jack Bauer has similarities). The point I'm trying to make is that we got to know each other in UM, by chance.

In UM, you and i lead our own life. You and I know that both of us only got really close in our final years in UM. I could not remember when and why exactly. But we got close as friends. I could not dwell deeper into the details because the details will hurt not only me and you but others as well. We cannot turn back time but i believe all of us learnt a lot.

I never had any regrets falling for you.

Happy 1st anniversary to us. I love you fatty :P

Two very different people,
too scared to get along,
Till two hearts beat together,
underneath one sun,

One very special moment,
can turn a destiny,
And what some would say,
could never change,
has changed for you and me,

We are two very different people,
so much to overcome,
So why care for one another,
when there's so much to be done,

Cause sometimes it's necessary,
just look how far we've come,
You could say my friend that,
it's the end,
or a new tale has begun :)

8th :)

okay. now this post is dedicated to budak berat saya, about additional things i've learnt about her sepanjang 8 bulan dengan dia, things which i didn't know when i was her friend before :

1) she's good with kids

- sangat2 tkejut. all this while i tot budak ni pandai main kucing je. n dia pun byk kali ckp dia x suke budak2. tapi to my surprise nina n aiman sangat rapat dgn dia skrg. sgt kagum tgk dia ajar aiman maths haritu. could not describe how i feel, rasa sgt seronok. n as for nina, i think she's happy finally dia dah jumpa org yg sebaya dgn dia kot, siap boleh gado2 lagi sbb x puas ati kalah main n rebut2 nak bukak pintu kereta. (sah2 la awk menang if lawan budak 7 tahun kan??)

2) she's giving as much as i am, maybe more, for our relationship.

- i know sy slalu bising why evrytym pun mcm sy je yg kene buat mcm2. tapi percaya la evrytym i said that i know it's not true, coz this special girl has given so much for us..a lot of rough patches, n im happy i still have u.muah.

3) dia slalu risau x bertempat (paranoid)

- lepas amek gamba passport utk interview : "awk, mane gamba sy yg dulu tu, nak tgk mane lagi cantik.", "ala, nape mcm yg dulu ni lagi cantik"

- sambil mengunyah makanan: "awk, awk rasa sy makin gemuk ke?", "dah biasa org ckp sy makin kurus, nnt if org tibe2 ckp badan sy naik sy sentap"

- duduk dlm kete yg bergerak dengan sedikit laju: "amirah cuba bawak senonoh sikit!", "hei die nh bawak xleh lagi senonoh", "isshhh rapat sgt la kat belah kiri ni!!"

- setiap kali sampai mane2 tempat yg ktorg pegi: "awk, nak p toilet"

- setiap kali die marah atau merajuk : "K", "X","Xtau","Xpe", "Nite" :-0

- setiap kali mood die baik : (xleh tulis, nnt dia emo.huhu)

4) wpun dia slalu bising berat dia naik, dia x penah nampak gemuks. i know i'll never admit this dpn awk tp it's true :) owh yeah, in case u r reading, tgk betul2 ayat kat atas eh. i said x penah nampak gemuk, tp sy x ckp awk kecik B-)

5) lidah dia blh sentuh hujung hidung sendiri. yuckss. uwek. jijik.



~im still nervous evrytym nak jumpe awk. n wpun almost hari2 jumpe, sy x pernah rasa cukup. evrytym hanta awk balik sy akan sedey :( n yeah, i'll continue doing stoopid things when im with u, coz i love seeing u smile n laugh, n membebel jugak :)~

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Will be going to Malacca tomorrow till Saturday. Sunday I will be in Gambang. She'll be going to KL soon. Won't get to see her till next week..then i'll be away again for 7 days.

I miss you.

Love.

I love you means i take you for the person you are. It means that i don't expect you to be perfect.

I love you for all your beauty, for all your flaws.

I love you for all your protests, i love you when you are being stubborn, i love you when you are being ridiculous and i love you for the simple fact that you get angry very easily.

I love you when you say hurtful things, because i know you did not mean any of them. I love you when you refuse to text or call me, because that is your way of dealing with your anger.

I love you because i feel comfortable with you, i feel safe when you are around.

I love you because you make me smile, because you make my heart jump like never before.

Happy 6th month's anniversary. Lucky to have you. I love you, berat.



EXEMPTION CLAUSE : gambar di atas ini adalah masa dia tengah elok. kalau tengah garang...scary.gangster.huhu B-)