When do i get to play futsal again..?

Dear blog,

I miss playing futsal, i miss running up and down the pitch for the whole one hour, or sometimes more than one hour non-stop, i miss shouting and asking for the ball from my teammates, i miss chasing after the ball, i miss the moments when i can pass the ball to my teammates, i miss the moments when i get the ball from my teammates, i miss the moments when we score goals, i miss the moments we react to a win, to a loss, to a draw, I miss the moments of laughter, anger, frustration and those feelings that we have on the pitch.

I miss my Gamma FC teammates, i miss my Kappa teammates, i miss the other teams who used to beat us as though we don't even know how to play.

Can't wait for adik to get over with his SPM exams. Then, nak ajak dia n kawan2 dia maen bola sampai muak. Can't wait for the next long break, when me and my Gamma FC teammates can gather and challenge other teams. Azmir(Jawa),Aliff(Ateng), Danial(Bakun),Bob(Bobby), Fairul(Askar), Uzair(Penyu), Imran(Kuda), Ariff(Lutut),Hisa(Makelele), bila la agak2 kite smua blh kumpul, pastu lawan team laen lagi eh?

-Can't wait to start kicking the ball, again.-

Hari ini :-)

"It matters not what you are thought to be, but what you are."

Found this quote in a friend's page. It made me think. It made me ponder.

Made a few calls to people i know. People who knew me. Touched by their willingness to listen, to offer words of courage, words of wisdom.

"I'm always behind you."

"Xpe, saba. Aku kenal la ko. Jgn risau aku kan ada."

"Ala amir, kalo tuhan rase ko xleh tanggung die x kasinye ko benda2 mcm ni."

"Stop kisah, stop pikir. Orang xnak paham, biar je."

"Aku rase ada je kan ko buat baik untuk dorg. Kalo orang xleh terima keburukan ko, lantak je la. Owh time ko buat benda untuk dorg bukan main dorg suke. Bile ko buat benda buruk terus xleh terima? Terus lupe ke benda2 baik yang ko buat? Pikir la sdiri bro."


* These are some of the things they said. Again it made me think.

* Yes, i am not perfect. I have my own weaknesses. But at the same time i have my
own strength and qualities.

* To some people, I am still the old me. To others, i am not the same amir anymore.
I guess I just cannot please everybody. And I don't intend to. I am just grateful
with what I have now.





-I made my decision-

Tercipta Untukku

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

BANYAK KATA
YANG TAK MAMPU KUUNGKAPKAN
KEPADA DIRIMU

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu


* pagi tadi dengar lagu ni kat radio..sebenarnya dah banyak kali dengar, tapi tadi the feeling was different..very very different.


P/s: baru sedar my blog ni mood bercampur-campur..kadang-kadang happy, kadang-kadang sedih. I guess that's how i am now..gembira dan sedih = gemdih :-D :-(

Soul-searching..

In need of time, in need of my own space..forgive me for whatever mistakes i've made..circumstances are such that no matter how i try to make things better, it got worse..

I guess the more people try to grip me, the more you try to get hold of me, the more you try to tie me down, the more i'll retaliate, unconsciously..

I have no reasons to lie..but at the same time i think there are things which are not supposed to be shared, things that i just have to keep within myself. Please understand that whenever i chose not to tell, it does not mean that i'm lying. Some things are best kept in our own heart, for not all human beings are transparent.

Friends, for the moment, just let me fly in the path that i have chosen..give me time, space, support and your understanding, because i need them now more than ever. If i came crashing half way, i hope you are ready to pick up the pieces, because i believe true friends will always be there.

I am adjusting my life, trying to fix one problem after another. I am no super human, so please give me time. Sometimes what you do is based on circumstances, and you just cannot explain why you chose to do what you did.

Please don't expect me to be you.., because i am me and i'm sorry if by being me i am not good enough for all of you...

To my family,luv and those who understands, thank you for being there for me.. to the rest, i am sorry for my mistakes.

Bile saye happy :-D

Only you
can make this world seem right
Only you
can make the darkness bright
Only you and you alone
can thrill me like you do
and fill my heart with love for only you

Only you
can make this change in me
For it's true
you are my destiny
When you hold my hand, i understand
the magic that you do
You're my dream come true
my one and only you, only you

Only you and you alone
can thrill me like you do
and fill my heart with love for only you

Only you
can make this change in me
For it's true
you are my destiny
When you hold my hand, i understand
the magic that you do do
You're my dream come true
my one and only you :-D




p/s: wak, if u r reading..ingatkah anda pada lagu ini..?huhu.